It’s been 5 months since my last entry & I’ve lost 10lbs. After gaining nearly 28lbs. Yeh…I know.
Not blogging isn’t to blame, obviously, that would be me. I know I started this blog wondering if it would help me succeed. Personally I don’t think it has but that’s not to say I’m done with it. It would be unfair to stop now. Unfair to those that take the time to read it, unfair to me who habitually never finishes anything she starts, apparently. I’m not sure if unfair is even the right word. Cowardly maybe?
A couple of months ago it was time to call for reinforcements. I had no focus, no enthusiasm & I had stopped weighing myself. You’d think by now I would know that avoiding the scales is a slippery slope for me, duh! A few weeks passed, then a few more & after the easter break I faced the scales. My weight had peaked at 17.10lbs. Seeing the number on the scale was a little surprising. But I knew before I stepped on that it was going to be bad. This number is alot more than some of my male friends weigh. Nearly as much as my Dad! Obviously, it’s critical for me not to be this heavy at 32 years old and 5.5″ tall.
So after slipping into the habit of not really exercising anymore & eating pretty much anything I wanted, I remembered…”Hang on, this isn’t me. This is not the life I’m living. These are not my thighs, this is not my sandwich” It was like the Talking Heads song! And I had been “letting the days go by” So I arranged a chat with a friend of mine who is a coaching consultant Hypno/NLP therapist…general all-round Guru. He helped me understand that my lack of focus & bad habits go hand in hand. He helped me remember why I want to be fit & healthy in the first place. He gave me the kick up the arse I needed in a positive, joyful way, not critical or judgemental like I often am with myself. The whole experience had such an impact on me. It was just like someone switching the lights on. And thanks to his expert techniques those feelings will be with me forevermore.
One thing that stuck with me was that he kept saying “what is stopping you going for a run right now?” I didn’t tell him this at the time but I had just got home & slipped my pj’s on ready for a night in front of the telly. For a flash of a second I was searching for an excuse not to go. But in the same flash I realised I’d been making excuses for weeks. Within an hour I was out running, sweating and loving it.
I’ve now worked out a timetable where I run on alternate days with some exercises at home & 1 rest day. I can make this timetable work well for me because, on a daily basis, it takes up little of my time.
I probably don’t need to tell any of you the benefits of an active lifestyle but rest assured my goal is now illuminated. And even at this vast size of 16.12lbs, my life has changed for the better, forever.
Thanks Friends x